Turning 21
I turn 21 next Wednesday. And how am I feeling? Like hell!!! I had quite the same thing last year, just before I turn 20. It was worse, actually. I just got my AS results, and it was terrible. So, believe it or not, I had kida like a mid-life crisis when I was turning 20!!! I was thinking about how my teenage years are about to end, and I had nothing to be proud of. I was thinking about how I had achieved nothing impressive for the past 20 years of my life!! So I was miserable on my 20th birthday, despite having my friends giving me a triple treat of the KYUEM birthday tradition, and amazing gifts (thanks people!!!). Oh, and my mom forgot my birthday!! She called me 2 days later at 6 a.m. and said she just remembered. I don't blame her. She has enough to worry about. I was just my birthday. No biggie.
So over the year, I tried to get rid of the feeling of self-pity by sitting 14 papers in A levels, and alhamdulillah, I got straight A's. So I was happy. I thought "NOW I have something to be proud of!!" But then I arived at UCL.
I don't know why, but this year, my birthday is also at the time where I am just miserable. My life is a complete mess. I got back my management essay last week. When I handed it in last term, I thought it was good. But I got an F. So I'm turning 21 next week with an F-graded essay in my mind all the time.
Bithdays used to be fun. Isk... Isk.. Isk
So over the year, I tried to get rid of the feeling of self-pity by sitting 14 papers in A levels, and alhamdulillah, I got straight A's. So I was happy. I thought "NOW I have something to be proud of!!" But then I arived at UCL.
I don't know why, but this year, my birthday is also at the time where I am just miserable. My life is a complete mess. I got back my management essay last week. When I handed it in last term, I thought it was good. But I got an F. So I'm turning 21 next week with an F-graded essay in my mind all the time.
Bithdays used to be fun. Isk... Isk.. Isk
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